Gadgets, Emos and Were...owls

What an emotional yet gadget-ridden two weeks I've had!

Received my new (I say new, it's refurbished) lovely £200 PB laptop from ebay which works like a charm. *glee* My external devices were no longer alone when I came across MacDrive. Best program ever! *uber geekery glee* Upgraded my broadband account, got a new hub and an actual wireless signal and I'll save £15 a month. And today, I bought a new phone - an LG KP500 Cookie. It's blissss. Ideally, and as an excuse to fulfill my gadget indulgence, I would've liked the iPhone but it's too pricey plus, it's only on O2 (how racist lol). Also bought a couple of games; WarioWare : Smooth Moves and SSBB. Have yet to play it, see if it lives up to the hype (it genuinely looks like a good game, I have to say).

All this and I still have money in the bank, but they say money can't buy you happiness. Despite enjoying my new wares, I couldn't agree more...

!!EMO RANT ALERT!!

It's been over six months since I last spoke to my folks/since they walked out on me. However, I did receive an indirect email from my Dad (he was responding to my social worker who's been more like a friend and a Mum to me than anything else over the last few months). Without going into too much detail, he was basically blaming her for the decisions I made in regards to standing up for myself, even after explaining to him. I was hoping after all those months, the penny might've dropped but no. I'm more than aware how he feels but I wish he could take the blinkers off. I blame my (step)mum for his current closed-mindedness (she's also very opinionated and stubborn in her own right). She's been an antagonistic yet unconscious influence on him and both of them are unaware of it. I just hope she hasn't brainwashed him for good. I love him way too much and it breaks my heart. As his only daughter, I'm the only one who seems to notice the changes. I'm dreading Christmas as well. Will be the first time spending it without them and I don't have a lot of close friends who I could go to who live locally.

I'm fucked.

Knowing it could be forever and a day before we kiss and make up, being single, living alone in a shitty town, heart aching to move elsewhere, and make new friends, I'm surprised I haven't resorted to drugs or alcohol...or even suicide. I guess the big pro I've gained from this heap of shit is strength and maturity. Woo.

/EMO RANT

Ah, that's better.

Coping with all of this drains me both emotionally and mentally. I slept erratically for almost a week, my head abusing me with all sorts of junk during the night and then trying to recover during the day (hence the owl reference).

I'm gonna attempt to write a short story, think it might prove to be just an effective form of personal expression than drawing itself. They say writing is an art form after all...

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